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had the first paper in the morning. and oh boy im so gonna flunk my paper 1 cos i couldnt finish writing! like wtf? its bad. bad bad bad...
paper 2 was alright, manage to finish before time and also had ample time to check. it was managable, thanks ah mrs H. although i still dont like you since that incident. but i must say thank you big time.
but i still dont understand why, why why why in the hell is paper 2 so easy? ah yes im being cocky. =p
was gonna meet up with andy in the afternoon but he kinda freaked me and i decided to stay away from him and meet xiong xing, my movie partner instead. hahaha!
he first brought me to this kopitiam which i've never seen or know in 15 years of my life. im like a big sua gu there. oh ya, he treated me chicken rice. (: thanks ah!
so... of course, we went to the movies at northpoint for 'Stay Alive' at 6.55pm and kenyo tagged along after he book out. he was kinda reluctant to watch in his army uniform at first but we persuaded him. xx was saying he look like he's from NCC.
lol lol lol...
the movie was indeed superb, it is the 2nd movie that got me mumbling crap and totally freaked out after the land of the dead cos im really afraid of crawling and zombie-like human look alikes. they are definately not human, probably they were but i dont care! they dont now. =/ must be due to the long hours of the house of the dead 1,2 and 3 some time ago. i have this phobia already. shit, might have nightmares later. ahh!!!!
x'O
alright alright, bout the movie, kinda hate the ending lah okay, i dont understand why frankie muniz did not die. i dont a single bit know how he can suddenly appear even after the laptop showed that he is 'game over'?
you wont be able to understand unless you go watch. AND GO WATCH HOR. oh ya, smart people! go figure out the mystery please? i beg of you. tell me WHY? im fustrated.
*** 我好想...
能这么活下去...
没有烦恼，没有不愉快。
只有像儿时的笑容，没有心计。
能再天真一次，听不见城市的吵扎声，没有勾心斗角...
能和任何我爱或爱我的人在一起，没有压力，没有分离，没有争执...
什么伤人的事都没有...
只有单纯的自己和周围的人。
连照着镜子，没有保养，没有华丽的化妆品也觉得自己很美。
有多好？不知道... 可是，真的很想...
*** 你... 最后一次疼爱自己是什么时候？
最后一次感受自己的心是真正的快乐或难过又是什么时候？
偶尔试着发呆... 让自己轻松一些...
晚安...
(:
;i am afraid
Monday, September 25, 2006
8:50 PM
bought this book cos popular got 20% off. hahahaha! =p.
she's pretty right? she shared all her skin care secrets. its like damn good. but the chinese standard still must have abit to understand what she's saying lah.
school was okay, stayed a little while for maths remedial while most of the others went off.
tsk. i have this bad feeling. i dont know why. something bad might happen. i dont know what. i hate it. i really am afraid.
thanks wen shen for accompanying me just now. (:
;i am afraid
Saturday, September 23, 2006
11:41 PM
my sing bugs made me wanna go sing k today but no room was available at the partyworld. not even one single room. to kill the bugs, we went over to cck kbox. but the price can brutally kill 4 poor people like me, mingzheng, jeffrey and guowei.
so we gave up in the end. mingzheng and i went over to more than words to get presents for his youngest sis's birthday. that troublesome little thing! only like minnie mao (mouse) -.-
spend the day slacking and doing nothing. oh ya i washed the toilet. thats something i've done. tsk. this entry is shit.
just saw a miss call from him after 4 long months without even knowing what he's doing. i hate it when he says he's busy, tired, outside with friends or some crappy stupid excuse after another. but seeing it makes me wait like a fool again. though he never replies...
must he really act like a spiderman? must he call and not tell me why? must he be the hero in my life? must he save me from all the unhappiness?
and disappear just like that...
(15 minutes later from the miss call) a sms came. its not him. i've known him well enough.
(an hour later...) a call came, answered without realising its him. asked me to meet him later when he reach woodlands. sending someone home. must be a girl. i dont know why i thought of it this way but its very likely. i really dont know if i should meet him. really dont. some part of me wants to see him but some part of me dont really know how to face him. the tone he used was rather reluctant to see me. then why bother to call? why bother to meet? why bother to ask me out?
why even bother to show up again bastard?
im agitated. seriously am.
(10.05pm) he haven't call. must be busy, again. i dont even know why i bother lah. since he dont bother much. ahh!! i dont know what im doing.
should forget about it. =/
mass run was on as usual on wednesday mornings. i walked 4 solid rounds today. like wtf. had maths test right after. getting better already. dont know why, must be the irregular visits to my tuition centre. haha. how ironic.
3 tests were on for today and had mother tongue listening test right after school. our chinese teacher got angry and behaved like a real gay to talk with the hand swinging all over him because marvin and samuel were playing a fool. they walked out soon after whereas yixuan and i stayed for the sake of our marks.
it is a tiring day. no doubt.
pretty right? came across their photo in the chinese mtv website. the girl on the right is starring as Ye Ke Lan in Magicians of Love. Her real name is Sui Tang (随堂). the other chick is called Tang Tang (堂堂). Both models lah. can never reach their height okay faggers.
this? is his once dream now reality 28 or 38 i forgot years old (super) vintage vespa. yes he has a name for it. yes yes yes i know. i should stop talking bout him.
have to go to bed for now. cant stand everything around me. not a thing. damn, i wish i could just disappear like how he does it.
fuck.
;i am afraid
Monday, September 18, 2006
1:26 AM
DANNY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY & GOOD LUCK FOR O's (:
;i am afraid
Sunday, September 17, 2006
9:58 PM
Please enter your full name:: Note: Most authorities agree that the full birth name as recorded on your birth certificate is the name that must be used for all calculations involving name. Nicknames, changed names including marriage name changes do not dilute the importance of the name given to you by your parents.
You entered: Chua Jing Han
There are 11 letters in your name. Those 11 letters total to 51 There are 4 vowels and 7 consonants in your name.
Your number is: 6
The characteristics of #6 are: Responsibility, protection, nurturing, community, balance, sympathy.
The expression or destiny for #6: The number 6 Expression provides you a truly outstanding sense of responsibility, love, and balance. The 6 is helpful and ever conscientious, making you quite capable of rectifying and balancing any sort of inharmonious situation. You are a person very much inclined to give help and comfort to those in need. You have a natural penchant for working with the old, the young, the sick, or the underprivileged. Although you may have considerable creative and artistic talents, the chances are that you will devote yourself to an occupation that shows concern for the betterment of the community.
The positive side of the number 6 suggests that you are very loving, friendly, and appreciative of others. You have a depth of understanding that produces much sympathetic, kindness, and generosity. The qualities of the 6 make the finest and most concerned parent and one often deeply involved in domestic activities. Openness and honesty is apparent in your approach to all relationships.
If there is an excess of the number 6 in your makeup, you may exhibit some of the negative traits associated with this number. There may be a tendency for you to be too exacting and demanding of yourself. In this regard, you may at times sacrifice yourself (or your loved ones) for the welfare of others. In some cases, the over zealous 6 has difficulty distinguishing helping from interfering. You may have difficulty expressing your own individuality, because of involvement with responsibilities and causes. Like all with the Expression of the number 6, it's quite likely that you worry much too much.
Your Soul Urge number is: 5
A Soul Urge number of 5 means: The 5 soul urge or motivation would like to follow a life of freedom, excitement, adventure and unexpected happening. The idea of travel and freedom to roam intrigues you. You are very much the adventurer at heart. Not particularly concerned about your future or about getting ahead, you can seem superficial and unmotivated.
In a positive sense, the energies of the number 5 make you very adaptable and versatile. You have a natural resourcefulness and enthusiasm that may mark you as a progressive with a good mind and active imagination. You seem to have a natural inclination to be a pace-setter. You are attracted to the unusual and the fast paced.
You may be overly restless and impatient at times. You may dislike the routine work that you are engaged in, and tend to jump from activity to activity, without ever finishing anything. You may have difficulty with responsibility. You don't want to be tied down to a relationship, and it may be hard to commit to one person.
Your Inner Dream number is: 1
An Inner Dream number of 1 means: You dream of being a leader and one who is in charge. You want to be known for your courage, daring, and original ideas. You seek unconquered heights. People may get a first impression that you are very aggressive and sure of yourself.
13/9 ; on to episode 16 of 爱情魔发师 (magicians of love) now. wenshen says im a tv monster. LOL.
so anyway, I LOST MY NEW BOUGHT OIL BLOTTERS! -.- i've only used one okay and its gone now. what the... xO
and, just got a new hair cut last sunday. i liked it alot but its kinda short, too short to accept the fact that fast. haha. samuel says it looks like helmet. tsk.
life... has been dead, meaningless and out of point. i dont know what im doing. someone gave me light where i thought i saw hope but i still suspect if its true. he was never there for me anyway. so what if you've made all the promises. a pack of lies it is. i wont care anymore.
14/9 ; went over to yishun ite and i must say i really got to understand and know how they live in there. its like who cares? they smoke, dye their hair, had tattoos all over, piercings are normal and fights are just tea break time for them. i might be a little exaggerating over here but it appears to be somehow like that. forget about it.
watched videos, had lotsa breaks and tours around. was kinda boring lah seriously, im glad i have no intention in going into ites. i might die in there. =/
oh ya, theres a small incident where this guy ask for yi xuan's number, wanted to be her friend but got teased by his friends cos she held me and brisked off. wahaha. can imagine his expression man. so damn embarrassed. there were also guys who whistled at us, i swear its scary. tsk.
15/8 ; meet up with mingzheng today and we've talked things clear. i felt sorry and so is he. im glad i talked. thanks jeffrey for the 2 hour long talk with me the night before, for all the advices and for making me smile again. i appreciate what you've done.
16/9 ; HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BRENDA, HOPE EVERYTHING'S GOING WELL FOR YOU. (:
speaking about this mei of mine, it has been a long time since i saw her. we've drifted apart lah, we could have been neighbours. =/
so anyway, stayed at home the whole day, finish watching 爱情魔发师 (magicians of love) and finally changed my bedsheet. still wondering if i should turn up at the bbq phileo invited me to. tsk. asked too many people out, then resulting this.
just back from sophia's, with 2 hours of sleep and the flu bug. darn it.
nevermind bout the flu but wtf, thats me? never was enough but it didnt matter for now. he called me a bitch last night, yeah and a freakin' loud one somemore. was feeling like crap, cried like crap. aiyah, vocab poor already okay. no brain to think. im dead hungry and worn out but theres no one i can talk to. when you are also gone because of my fault, i did something so bad i must leave. i'll take it as you've got freedom.
went out with doris and a gang of girls the day before and was almost killed by laughing. they were real nice. especially xiaohui(sec2) don mind me calling her 'boyfriend!~'. she's like so manly okay, they way she carry off her style, dress, talk. like everything lorh! so man okay! wahaha~ =p
i'll update on more soon. i'm getting outta my mind. need o2jam! argh!
i lied... i still love you...
;i am afraid
Monday, September 04, 2006
12:08 PM
blogging time! im like so bored at home, mummy insist i should go for tuition and me feeling very reluctant to do so. like tired okay.
its holiday, its monday, its when movies are only $6.50, its making me wanna watch 2 at one shot and i have to spend the day at tuition. yes.
scream! xO
i have so little stuff to blog about, nothing worth the write. i dont know. and ya, pictures are still not up, i know. mom's been asking for her phone everytime i feel like uploading them and thats like 1 in the morning. she has to sleep, i know i know.
choir will be on tues and thurs, 1-4pm, which i die die must go as ms yee is i heard freaking fed up with me for not turning up.
christie
